Monday, July 28, 2003

a void.

there have been times in my past when i have left a relationship and felt a certain void. historically i have filled it with work, material items and partying. after some time, i am good. so here's the question - is this a void that can never be filled? is it something that the each of us have? or is it only the person that has left you that can fill this void? i believe that the first question is usually the case and to fill that void is to be happy with yourself, but in my current situation, i think that it's the last one. i really do...

the person i speak of was incredible. incredible intelligence, incredible humor and incredible beauty, inside and out. the materialization of all my hopes and dreams. when i first met her, i knew that she was the one. everybody has a mental picture of who their ideal person would be like and look like, right? well, she was it.

in spite of all that, the relationship failed. now she's completely out of life.

i know that people come and go, but she has left an indelible mark on my life.

i had it good for so long, i'm not too sure if this void can ever be filled.

funny how history repeats itself:

i have been working my ass off.

i have been shopping a little too much.

i have caught myself hitting the brew pretty hard lately.

everything is swell, but...

blah, blah, blah...

i can go on and on about this, but when it really comes down to it, i just miss my best friend...

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